Wednesday, August 27, 2003
in the morning i tot girls were bitches.
i still think that they are. i can't change that. but girls also pull at your heartstrings and make u feel like u wanna love them forever.
no...she didn't do anything tt nice. but my heart went out for her when she told me she was in an emotional low.
but don't u see?? dont u see?? esp all the people who knew me during the times when there was lin... the vicious cycle has started again.
they tell me that they are in a slum. need to be in their "shell". then after tt i talk to them once...they shout at my face and make a big fuss abt it then i get pissed n we end up fighting n destroy the best thing tt dropped into our lives. i find that the problem feli is facing is me. but maybe im just being paranoid cos i have no confidence in such r/s matters. i have come to the conclusion tt it is always me. u know?
reasons why i think it's me
1) she wld have complained to me the prob
2) she has been ignoring me since yest
3) she didnt want to see me
4) she told me that people are unsincere
5) she didnt take my offer to blanja her(weird! if hafiz blanja can...bacin)
6) she sounded irritated when she msg me
7) she switched off her hp today
8) she didn't pick up my call yest
9) cos maybe i promised her something i can't keep..(this cld be untrue if she tot that i was talking about someone else)
10) she said i'll talk to u tmr...n tmr has come but she has not talked.
oh yah...then tmr got freindly at nyp... haiz... lynn n rely r gonna be in love mode then me n feli are already in the slumps. do u see the vicious cycle?? tmr i have to meet her still after she told me she needs to be alone. then she'll pretend everything is ok. then she will msg me tt she still needs time alone. then maybe i will have some kind of life threatening problem. then i will tell her. then she will fight with me n label me bitch of the yr. then the next day for some unearthly reason i will have to see her. then i will come late. n well... we dun talk for four months. best!!!
--insignificant lies--
11:55 pm
